Hubs ❤

Years passed by.

Guess what? After all of messes happened. Thousand times broke up. Several nights with tears. Several days talking shit as fuck.

Call each other bastard. Treat each other like hell.

And today..Here we are. Right here. Right now. Distance may always apart. But here we are.

Somewhere close in hearts. Hearts become heart.

Years. We've been together for many fucking years. And i swear everyday..We never missed to pray for us.

And i guess He heard us. Because how hard we faced thru the mess. The bad day. At the end,we still together.

I still remember..We spent all night long together. Late in night,he told me he was hungry.

I almost sleep and suddenly,mama,b lapar.

B nak makan?Mama nak panaskan kuah.

Luckily that day i cooked his fav Mee Kari. My fav too.

Aku panaskan kuah. Gorengkan tauhu bulat untuk dia. Sediakan dia mee kari. Penuh semangkuk besar.

Dia cakap,banyaknye. Aku cakap takpe,kita kongsi..

Dia suapkan. Aku temankan dia makan. Lewat malam. Pukul 1 ke 2. Jarang dapat macamni. Seronok sangat rasa.

Aku habiskan lebihan yang dia tak lalu dah.

Seronok sebab kami hargai masa yang tak berapa banyak tu. Dia belai aku. Dia layan aku baik-baik.

Aku happy. Aku kacau dia. Manja dengan dia. Rindu sangat.

And then i realize..Aku sayang dia. Terlalu sayangkan dia.

No one boleh jaga aku. Buat aku selesa macam yang dia buat. Dia sebahagian daripada diri aku.

Aku perlukan dia dalam setiap langkah aku.

Aku tau..Sometimes bila kami jauh. Kami gaduh. Dan aku selalu cakap dia layan aku macam shit.

Aku tau dia takda niat. Dia terlalu sayangkan aku. But in the same time dia tak sedar cara dia melukai aku. Dia rindu. Dia sayang. Dan dia terlalu takut kehilangan aku.

Dia benci bila aku buat salah. Dia tak suka aku mintak maaf lepas buat salah.

Both bergaduh. Kadang2 sampai block wassap. Tapi bergaduh cemana pun both tau. Kami takkan putuskan relay dengan family masing2.

Dia still whatssap mak aku everyday. Dan mak aku dah count on him..Trust on him untuk jaga aku.

Aku akan jumpa mak dia. Masakkan untuk mak dia,family dia. Even masa kami gaduh. Aku pergi rumah dia,even masa dia takda di rumah.

From all above i said. I just wanna apologize again. Big apologize deep from heart.

I love u Helmi Ishak. I really do.

Saya terlalu sayangkan awak. Aku sayang hang.

Saya cuma nak awak stabil. Kita sama2 work hard and kita bina hubungan yang halal.

Peduli kata orang. Diorang semua tak penting..Yang penting,kita.

Kita b. Kita. Us.

Doakan yang terbaik. Stay strong untuk relay ni. Tolong jangan mengalah. Tolong kuat.

I love you hubby.

Sincerely,
Wifey.